The journey of Mommyhood is an adventure all in itself, but my adventure is starting a new endeavor today. Today begins the new chapter in our lives with Joseph starting school in the evenings. I have so many emotions going through me all at one time. I am happy and excited that he has made the decision to further his education and what opportunities that it will open in the future with his job, but I would not be honest if I did not say I’m nervous, scared and a bit overwhelmed with the fact that this means I will basically be a married single mom during the week. I am truly thankful to have to family support that we have my parents and his parents that will be able to help me out some. This is not going to be just an adjustment on me, but a huge adjustment on the kids. I know that with the God on our side we will make it through this.
This week with Joseph starting school is not going to be a typical week because of a cruise to the Bahamas that has been booked since the beginning of this year. So not only does this mommy have the emotions with the new going to school adventure, but has the many emotions of being away from the kiddos. I am excited to get away for almost a week and to celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary in the Bahamas, but I am also having anxiety of being away from the kids in a way I have never been before. Taylor will turn five in less than two weeks and the furthest that I have been away from them was a five-hour car ride away. This trip is different, I will be on a boat in the Atlantic, I can’t get in a car and come home if something happens. I know that they will be fine and have a great time because they will be with their MawMaw & DaDa, but I am still a mommy with the mommy anxiety.
I know that it is important that Joseph and I get this time away. With so many changes coming with him starting school that we need this time together. The only way we can take care of our children, is to make sure we take care of ourselves and our marriage too. So here’s to the new adventure and more mommy moments! Stay Tuned!
When being out of flour leads to talking to your four-year-old about praying. We never know what God is going to use as an instrument for teaching about him. That is exactly what happened Friday. I had told Taylor that we would make some chocolate chip cookies that he and his sister could take to have at their MawMaw and DaDa’s house for the weekend. This mommy was doing good, I had the butter sitting out to get to room temp while I prepared the kids pancakes and sausage for breakfast. After breakfast I went to get the remaining ingredients for the cookies and that is when I realized that we had every ingredient except the flour. At that moment I knew that the trip to the store was a must and let’s face it……… all us Mommies know that a quick trip to the grocery store is never just a quick trip when kiddos are in tow.
I think we were out the door in record time, I think partly because it looked like it was going to start pouring rain at any moment. So we are loaded up in the car and to Walmart we head. On the way to this really quick trip to Walmart, if there is such a thing as a quick trip to Walmart…….anyways this mommy starts going over the expectations at Walmart. Listening Ears, we are only getting the few things on the list, we will not be walking out with any toys. Then this mommy starts talking God and asking please let the rain hold off till at least until we get home or let it rain while we are in the store but stop let it stop before we leave to get back in the car. Then all the sudden I hear Taylor in a sweet little voice saying “Jesus, please don’t let it rain!” My first thought was they do listen to me ha ha, but I knew in that moment this was the perfect opportunity to talk about how God always answers our prayers according to his will. That sometimes God’s answers are not always how we want them or think they should be answered but that his way is always perfect. We just have to simple ask God for his will to be done. God hears our prayers no matter how big or how small that they may be.
Well God heard our prayers and he answered them, the rain held off! He even answered this Mommy’s prayers and the Walmart trip went great. There were moments of asking for things which is fine but I am just thankful that the dreaded answer “No” did not trigger complete full blown tantrums……this time!!! The rain even held off on the way home from the store. On the way home we continued our discussion on prayers because Taylor says “Mom, look it didn’t rain!” Yes, Taylor God answered our prayers about the rain and God will always answer our prayers but it will not always be exactly how we want them to be answered. Sometimes God’s answer will make no sense to us and we will not understand why and that is okay. God’s way is always right, perfect and for his glory. We need to give God thanks in all circumstances.
Today was one of those days that as a mom you are crying on the inside because your toddler is teething and nothing; I mean nothing is going to console her. She wants you to hold her, no wait a minute she wants to be put down, she wants something to drink…….oh not in that cup……..yes that cup…………wait this is milk not juice. I need to nap……………wait no I want to get out and play, oh the life of a teething toddler! Oh but let’s add in 3 1/2 year old that is loving testing the boundaries and pushing the limits to see what he can get away with. Yes, it was one of those days! Mommy just wanted to escape for a few minutes. A teething toddler meant she took an earlier nap than she normally does. Since she was napping earlier, I decided to have her brother go down a little earlier than normal, since A. he woke up earlier than normal and B. this mommy wanted at least a few quiet minutes to herself. Okay, let’s be honest a few minutes to clean the house. No such luck within 30 minutes of Taylor going down for nap Emersyn woke up. Fixed her lunch and then we were going to play. Apparently, she thought we were going to play outside because she brought me my flip-flops and said “Outside”. She was a little disappointed when she realized we were not going outside and really upset when I blocked of the hallway to keep her from being able to her brother’s room. Yes, she loves to go in his room and wake him up, ah, she just loves to go in his room and climb in his bed. Well she could not make her way to his room, but she managed to wake him up with her screaming. Yes, screaming…..not crying because there was no tears, not even the first little tear. So here, it is 12:15 and on a normal day both of them are napping or about to fall asleep and not one but both of them were wide-awake. I knew in that moment it was going to be a long long afternoon! Later that afternoon when my husband got home, I told him I need just five minutes to myself; I just need to be able to hear myself think. Something all moms can relate too. Into our bedroom I went, closing the door behind me. I went sat in the rocking chair in our bedroom. The Oh so comfortable cushioned oversized rocking chair that I had rocked both my babies in. I grabbed my 3 Minute Devotions for Women book. I decided at that moment, I was going to just close my eyes and pick a random page to read. Well I was thinking I was randomly picking but deep down I knew that it was God’s way of picking the one that I need in that moment. God never fails us and he didn’t fail me in that moment, he knew exactly what I needed to hear.
With joy, you will draw neat water from the wells of salvation. (Isaiah 12:3 NIV) The prayer at the end of the devotion said “Lord, thank you for saving me. Thank you for being the living water, my continual source of peace, comfort, strength and joy. Cause me to remember that my life is hidden in Yours. Amen
He knew that is just what I need to hear in that moment of being overwhelmed and needing a break. We can always count on the word of God to fill us in the moments we feel empty. Therefore, moms when you feel overwhelmed, stressed, or tired turn to the word of God. He is the only one that can fill you up on what you are missing. His word is what gives me strength and it will give you strength as well. Leaning on the word of God is what gets me through my day.
Leave it to our four-legged child to turn our evening completely upside down. It was like any other day and I had let Al’s out to take care of her business. She came back to the backdoor and barked to come back inside and in typical Allie fashion she just sits there when I open the door to let her back inside. Therefore, I close the door back and let her sit outside until she finally decides that she wants to come back in. Well Taylor and Emersyn are sitting at the table eating their dinner, when Taylor asks for a slice of cheese. When I open the cheese slice up for him, a small piece breaks off. I decide to give that little piece to Allie because I know that will get her to come back inside the house. Yes, Al’s never turns down food. Well when I open the door she does not come, which isn’t unusual, but what was unusual was she was nowhere to be seen. I thought maybe she is behind the shed, so I call her name and nothing. She is nowhere to be seen and that is when I realize that somehow the gate on the privacy fence has come open somehow. My heart sinks and panic sets in. I can see the worry come over Taylor’s face when he realizes that Allie is not in the backyard and has went missing. I immediately call my husband to see how close to being home he was. I sit at the table with Taylor and Emersyn and we begin close our eyes and begin to pray.
Dear Heavenly Fathers,
We come to you asking you to look after and keep Allie safe on her adventure.
Lord, we know that if it is your will she will come home safely too us. Lord, we put this all
In your hands.
(Taylor) “Please bring Allie back so I can pet her please”
I send text to my mother in-law and to my sister, asking them to pray, because Allie had gotten out of the backyard. My husband pulls in the driveway from looking in the neighborhood and my heart sinks again when he does not have Allie with him. He comes in to get her leash so he can go back out looking in the neighborhood for her. Taylor is asking me “where is Allie? Where did she go?” I realize that there is still a good possibility that Allie may not come back to us. I have Taylor come sit on the couch with me and I try my best to let him know that Allie may not come home to us. That even though we prayed to God to bring Allie home safely to us, that Allie might not come home. God may have other plans for Allie. God does not always give us what we want but will always give us what we need.
My sister text me back and says they are going to come over and help look for her. My, mother in-law text me and says that she will go Columbia Rd to go home and look. Yes, our neighborhood is very close to a very busy road. Therefore, I knew the possibility of her being hit by a car or truck was extremely high. Just then, something told me to look out the front door, when I did I saw Miss Allie McBeals across the street. I open the front door and she came running and ran into the living room. Our prayers were answered. The pure excitement on Taylor and Emersyn’s face was priceless. You could at that moment see the love that those too have for their Allie Girl.
I am so thankful that God looked after Allie and brought her back safely to us. I know there are a lot of families never have the same outcome that we had. We are truly blessed that Allie returned home safely and uninjured. I am not exactly sure where all Allie went on her adventure, but what I do know is she came back wet and muddy…so it must have been a great adventure. Al’s big adventure led to showing and demonstrating the power of prayer with Taylor. We never know what God is going to use has a teaching tool for us.